In other words... it doesn't really matter now. I've made my bed and its where I lay. Even if I feel like a heel for a few days. Someone I've known for four years or two weeks? Choices. And I've made mine.
I just need to relax and have fun. The rest will sort itself out because while I do not believe in much I do believe in people, and them wanting to do what is right. I also think things happen for a reason. Why this happened, I haven't a freaking clue. But I'm sure it will lead to something more interesting in my life and perhaps something awesome. Who the hell knows, but I'm prepared as ever to go on this adventure to figure it all out.
I go back to the stress management techniques i learned overt he last two years. I need to employ them again. Stop projecting, don't worry about the future, theres nothing you can do and you don't know what the hell will happen. So stop guessing. Stay in the present. Enjoy it.